You know how people say that if something scares you it’s probably worth doing? And that you should “lean in” to your discomfort? Well, I am LEANING right now. Like falling into my discomfort, knocking it over and landing on top of it. I’ve had something pulling at my heart for a while now.  This little idea brewing in my brain for way longer than it’s needed to be trapped in there. I haven’t been clear on exactly what it is or how I should go about it so there it has stayed. I let uncertainty, fear of what others might think and a missing roadmap hold me back from doing something I’ve felt compelled to do. So today, I kick all that crap to the curb and I JUST START! I have no plan, no qualifications to give me credibility, and absolutely NO technological skills whatsoever, but here I go! 

 

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been obsessed with all things personal development, self-awareness and spirituality. I love to figure out what makes people tick, why I am they way I am and how to use the information to better my life. I take it all in – books, podcasts, videos, courses, life-coaching programs and for some reason, I have amassed an entire library of inspirational memes that I’ve come across on the Internet because my intuition told me I might need them someday. So I declare that today is that someday. I have the answer to that question you get asked when you lack direction in your life – “What would you do with your time even if you didn’t get paid for it?” For me it’s THIS! I’d take in inspirational material, learn from it and share my findings with others who might be able to use it too. I feel giddy when I help someone have one of those Oprah “Ah-ha” moments from something I’ve learned so I’m starting this blog/social media page or whatever it will become in hopes that you’ll have a few “Ah-ha’s” with me. I love to do the research so why not share the love?

 

I had my own “Ah’ha” moment the other day after reading something posted by The Hands Free Revolution. I’ve been feeling frustrated lately with my inability to act on this idea and as is usually the case with the Universe, this fell into my lap:

I believe anything is possible.

I am not tied to any outcome.

 

My vow is to show up bravely, boldly, flawed and full of hope.

Not when I receive approval

Not when I look a certain way

Not when I have a master plan

Not when I get more courage

Not after I’ve done more research

Not when I’ve gotten therapy for my issues

 

I choose to believe I am ready now.

To live the life I’ve been waiting to live.

To make the contribution only I can make in this world

Not perfectly

Not without fail

Not without a few tiny meltdowns or a few dramatic upheavals,

Not without shedding a tear or two or three.

But with courage and love.

 

I chose to believe I am ready now.

Because time doesn’t wait

And I’ve let the chains of “someday” hold me back for too long.

 

Hello today.

I didn’t realize it until now

But I’ve been waiting for you to arrive at my doorstep.

And here you are.

Right on time,

On the day I choose to believe anything is possible.

On the day I refuse to be tied to any particular outcome.

 

So with shaky hands, I grasp this invitation graciously extended to me as today stands before me.

 

I choose to believe good things will happen

When I step out in courage and love.

 

I see light ahead.

– Rachel Macy Stafford

 

So today I take action. I just start! I will learn as I go. No more excuses, no more stalling. Bloom Junkie has been born! If you care to watch it grow, read along. Then, follow my lead and send that email, sign up for the class, eat the veggies, walk into the gym. JUST START! 

Some inspiration:

The RISE Podcast with Rachel Hollis

Episode #56 – “The Lie – I’ll start tomorrow”